I promised myself I would never post anything about my weight. I hate making it anyone's business but my own. I am well aware of the fact that I've gained a lot of weight. I know I'm not in the best shape, and I'm having a hard time making me a priority. So, I thought, maybe if I make it known, write it down and let all of you read it, I might be more inclined not to fail.
First of all, I had Gage take a picture of Jon and I on our hike last Sunday. I wanted to cry when I saw the result. It was an amazing picture, but I hated the way I looked in it. The part that hit me the hardest was that no one said anything like "that doesn't look like you!" or, "that was a bad angle!" it was what I really look like, and I've turned a blind eye to it for a while now I guess.
Second, I've always loved to get dressed. I'm no "fashionista" by any means, but I love being creative with the conservative side of things. Lately, I haven't wanted to dress in anything but jeans and an oversized sweater. Everything else shows my belly and I really hate that.
Third, and most motivating...Gage told me that I'd probably be happier if I were skinnier. He didn't mean anything by it, he was even worried that I'd be upset when he said it. He's right though, I would be happier. I might not be too happy about getting there, but I don't want to be the bad example mom to my kids. I want them to want to be healthy and strong adults for their children, so I need to work on being healthy and strong for them.
Some of my friends at work have done the HCG thing, and I really thought that would be the way to go for me too. I'm not ruling it out, but I want to get to a point where I know I won't be wasting money. Wish me luck, it's going to be a long journey!
*Maybe at the end of it, I'll feel confident enough to share the picture I took last Sunday as the "before" to my newfound "after." But definately not now.
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